I Hope I'm Dying

Sometimes I hope I’m dying
That life is draining from my every limb
Seeping out through blood, sweat, and tears
So that if I ever close my eyes
I may never have to open them again.
So that each pen stroke
Holds a little more meaning
And every breath
Is more worth taking.
I’ll run harder for the last mile
Than I did for the other twenty
Uphill.
I’ll climb harder when I can see the peak.
But then again
Sometimes I hope I’m dying
Just so I won’t take another step
Away from you.